- when i see people can answer a *&#!$ question easily while i'm there still wondering, when the hell did my lecturer talk about this?
- when people can explain to me sooo well about certain topic while I DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT IT'S IN THE SYLLABUS.
- when i can not concentrate at class & my classmate were listening to the lecturer sooo carefully & taking notes until no space to write anymore. mine? blank pages only. :(
- when i was sooo motivated to study, i started to read the notes / try to do the question, i can not get it right / I don't know what i'm reading about... i get soo de-motivated.
- when my friends can go library & study consistently & I can't.
the exam fever attacked already... I am sooooo nervous because from 4 subjects I learnt these 5 months, i'm confident in NONE of them. I want to work hard, i really do. I wonder... what if i say to my mom, "mom, i'm not happy studying these subjects, it doesn't suit me & it just totally suck. worst campus life ever existed, i think. CAN I MOVE TO OTHER SCHOOL PLEASE???"
no, i don't wanna give up. Oh well, i paid for the exam fee already ok?! so must study hard for this upcoming exam. by the way, the exam is on May & it's getting on my nerves already. i'm nervous, scared, angry, feeling stupid (sometime smart? :P) & struggling at the same time.
I have to do my best. I CAN NOT DISAPPOINT MY PARENTSSSS!!!!
i have more than 100 days to memorize 4 stupid study guides & practice hard.
After you read this... if you were wondering
"then why you take this business course in the first place?"
A: first, i have no choice & i was too young to choose school. Honestly, I don't know which school has WOW reputation & which one doesn't. I'm the oldest among 3 & my parents has no experience on this thing too. If only i can turn back 3 years ago... I WOULD NEVER NEVER NEVER EVERRRRRRR TAKE THIS COURSE! that's for real.
my interest in this course = 0%... well if you take out all the theory & bullshit, it'll be ehmm 15%? all lectures bore me to hell. I just have to BARE with it & do my best.
1.5 years and i'm done.
PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO STUDY ALL DAY LONG... TO DO TUTORIAL ALL DAY LONG... NOT TO WATCH TV & SURF NET ALL DAY LONG... NOT TO PLAY GAME!
lastly, i hope i can pass my exam with... at least a 50-60 points EACH. (34 is passing mark)
if i get lucky, i can hit 70, collecting 5 of it & i get FIRST CLASS HONOUR DEGREE. yeah right.
off for now. i've set my goal & i'll make sure i'll get it done.
thanks to all people who believe in me & supporting me. really appreciate it.